I finally jumped off my unicorn and back into the Human Experience. I took my head out of the clouds and came back to planet earth.
I was immersed in it all… In fact, I was addicted. I was addicted and attached to crystals, tarot cards, ceremonial cacao, full moon rituals, plant medicines, pendulums and all the rest.
I was always chasing the next healing and the next 12D activation. Because I wanted to transcend and expand. I wanted to keep elevating my consciousness.
Yet soon I realised I had been operating from ‘broken-need-fixing’ mentality and belief system. The present was never good enough so I kept seeking the next thing that would help me expand and grow. I didn’t know when to stop. And I didn’t know I had been creating separation instead of wholeness.
So, I recently made a decision to quit. I quit my addiction to spirituality, as I realised I had developed a way of being where nothing was good enough. This also meant that I believed I wasn’t good enough the way I was. So I kept doing all the things that would help me evolve.
And on this journey of addictive ascension I had been partaking in spiritual by-pass and missing what life was truly about… The enjoyment of the now.
It’s almost like spirituality has become a trend. We begin showing up differently and speaking differently. We begin to engage in ‘conscious language’ and start using different words. Some even begin to channel light language, and soon we find ourselves so removed from the 3rd dimension of the human experience that we reject and avoid the magic that has been gifted to us.
It’s almost like crystals, incents and tarot cards have become ‘cool’. And we then tattoo our bodies with spiritual and cosmic symbols. Even yoga has become a new trend and easy ‘go-to’ for relief after a ‘bad day’.
Now suddenly we find ourselves by-passing our human emotions, and the moment we feel challenged on the inside we escape into meditation. We also think that because of these challenging inner states we must be missing something, we must still be ‘broken’, So we keep doing more and more. And this is a trap. It is an addiction to ‘doing’ rather than ‘being’.
So how and when do we know when to stop? How and when do we know when to take the foot off the pedal? How and when do we come to realise that by showing up this way we have in fact only kept feeding a ‘broken-need-fixing’ identity & addiction?
The only way that I came to realise this was to take the journey myself. I took the journey from 3D to 5D to 12D to 5D, and back to 3D again. No-one told me that the magic in life occurs in the physical dimension. The very dimension where our manifestations also become real.
The truth is we cannot just sit in meditation and think about what we want to manifest. Every dream and desire must be backed by a physical action in order to put the universal wheels in motion to deliver our desires.
Most people who embark on an addictive journey of ascension lack embodiment in the now. This is who I also was. I was living with my head in the clouds and lacking embodiment in the now. And everything happens in the NOW. Time is an illusion, and the question is – What do we keep re-affirming in the now? That we are ‘broken, not enough and need fixing’ – or that we are ‘whole, happy and abundant’?
I resigned from my healing addiction and ongoing 12D activations. I put my full-moon rituals on hold and said ‘No More!’
And as a result, I have integrated back into the 3rd dimension and began to experience the magic in the now. I now feel as complete and whole as a Queen in a Queendom! And I never knew that THIS kind of fun, happiness, contentment and joy was even possible!
I have never felt more happy, content, fulfilled and powerful than I do at this point in my life. I feel like a magician. My manifestations also show up instantaneously.
We never know what we know until we step into the next level of Self and reality. Until we peel back another layer and align another degree to the highest truth of our soul.
But how did I know it was time to press pause on the 12D world? My soul spoke to me. My intuition gave me a nudge. I was guided. And to have the ability to connect to this level of inner guidance is a practice itself.
No more healings. No more activations. No more releasing of blocks. Only one simple thing – To enjoy the fruits and bounty life has to offer. And to enjoy getting to know the new self I worked so hard to create.
Now, it was time to be a true human again. To play, enjoy and explore. And since then, I have been playing! I have been enjoying and exploring! I have been having a such a good time! With zero judgment, resistance and escaping of the present. Just simply making love to the now.
And the magic that keeps unfolding in front of my eyes. The speed of which I receive my manifestations is mind-bending!
Lately I have been invited to several activations and offered free healings. And the old me would have jumped at every opportunity. Yet the only thing I feel in the now is contentment, happiness and wholeness. Therefore, no part of me feels the need to accept any further healing.
I am not stating this as a ‘forever’ fact. The 5D / 12D journey has played a big part in my life and my growth. And I don’t reject any dimensions or any parts of Self. Right now, for the very first time in my life, I feel fully embodied in the all-ness of the human experience.
So, my point here is – Do YOU know when to stop? Do you know when to take the foot off the pedal?
As the saying goes “don’t fix what’s not broken” is also a great reminder that we are never broken – unless we embody an identity and belief system that we are. Because then, no matter how many healings or activations we do, we’ll never feel complete. We’ll never feel good enough. This is a shadow side of the spiritual ascension and the ‘consciousness space’.
One of the most powerful and important things I have ever learnt in my journey thus far, is that my soul always knows. My soul is my compass. My soul is my navigation system. And when I follow it, I simply can’t go wrong. Whatever I ask for it guides me to the exact thing one way or another. Or it guides me without my conscious asking. But I always trust. Even when the rest of the world is going Right, and my soul wants me to go Left – I trust and I go Left. I go wherever it wants me to go.
Your Soul is your most important life coach and your biggest cheer leader. So it’s time to stay in your own soul-lane. Everything and everyone you get to experience here on earth is a bonus. It’s a gift!
And if you don’t know how to access your soul guidance, intuition & inner wisdom find someone who can teach you. Do not solely rely on external healings and activations. Learn to become your own healer, guide and activator.
Operating solely from external guidance is a trap. We must learn to embody all parts and all dimensions of Self. We must learn to return to wholeness and to the truth of who and what we are. And most importantly, we must learn to integrate all the magical ‘woo-woo’ into the 3D. It’s HERE where the REAL magic happens.
So from a space of truth, alignment, awareness and surrender – let’s enjoy this human experience to the fullest! It’s what our soul came here for. Let’s embody real happiness and fulfilment without pretending. You deserve it all. We all do.